Day177

[ProLevel1] 10mins
"The only reason we sit is to create the right conditions to feel that sense of awareness."
I am getting into the “pro level”, how exciting. Andy says I will be letting go of any focus and let the mind free during the meditation. So in that way, my mind will be able to be free even when I am doing something else and not necessarily be focusing on my breath. That way I can be mindful in my everyday life. That is the goal and this course should be my transition to that practice. 
I still want her to meditate with me. But how will I approach this? She doesn’t think she “needs” it. She is fully aware of her thoughts and emotions. She said she wants to control her reactions to emotions better and be calmer, but she didn’t really take that benefit of meditation to be persuasive. Maybe I will just go to my basic desire, wanting to do the activity with her. Like exercise, I just want her in the activities I enjoy and do frequently. I love to see my parents walking and exercising qigong together. I want that for us too. It can be a family activity. 

[Understanding meditation] 5mins
"Meditation must be experienced to be understood. We can talk, read and think about it, but none of that comes close to the real experience."

I agree. There are something that I don’t experience in everyday life and therefore can’t put that into word that others can understand. And maybe I am just not good at describing things. Read more books and practice more.

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