Day 185

[ProLevel1] 15mins
I feel like I have lost my way of focusing. It might start at the same time I didn’t feel qi moving in my body. In this session, I still wasn’t able to get into the deep focus as before. I felt the superficial calmness but my eyes were restless. I don’t know what went wrong. Or maybe I am at a stage that I was so comfortable with the focus that I was in it but didn’t notice. I doubt it though because of the telltale signs of eye movement and the lack of body relaxation afterward. 
However, I noticed that I can control my breath more today. Previously, I found that when I was counting my breath, the air coming in was lower than normal. I found that I can control the air coming in low or high when I think about it, despite counting the breath or not. I think when I was counting, the numbers were in my mouth or somewhere lower than my nose, therefore my attention was at the lower end causing the feeling of air coming in the lower part of my nose. It’s not like the counting numbers have a mysterious power to increase the air’s weight. Before today, I actually thought it might be something like those religious words 李校長 found to have special quality when viewed with qi. His theory is those might be the portal to another dimension. Only if it’s so easy as to counting breath.

p.s. Could it be that my health is not up to par so my qi was off? Or because my qi is off so I am feeling under the weather?

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