Day354: soft focus

[TransformingAnger] 15mins

"We tend to notice anger as soon as it happens, but we often don’t notice the end of it."

I think my annoyance is similar to anger. It might be just a milder version of anger to me. So next time when I feel annoyed, I will notice my out-breath and relax. It’ll be even better if I can catch the end of my feeling. See how my emotion changes.

I felt a good posture today. Maybe it’s in the latter half of the session. I felt all my spine lined up and my thigh muscle relaxed. I noticed I tend to lean forward and that causes my leg muscles to tense up. When I opened my eyes in my good posture, I was looking straight instead of looking down like I have been doing for working and reading. 

I finally get a hand on soft-focus today. I visualized in my session that I leaned back from my breath and only reach out one of my arms to ‘touch’ on the breath. Previously I was full head into the breath, the full focus on the breath. However, there were more thoughts, or I noticed more thoughts, going through my head when I only applied the soft focus. When I was in hard focus, there were naturally fewer thoughts I could notice. So it seems like soft notice is better for me to practice noticing the thoughts and let them go. I can’t believe it has been this long before I actually feel what soft focus is, almost a year after I started. It’s just like everything else, there’s no end in improving.