Day 179

[ProLevel1] 15mins

I might be too excited about my reunion lunch today that I was thinking too much throughout the session >< Especially when I was focusing on my breath, I kept thinking about the past, and the future, where I will be talking to them. The thoughts about what I will be saying, how I will behave myself, and what might they think about me kept dominating my brain. However, before I was focusing on breath, and when I was keeping a distance away in my mind, there weren't that many thinking going on. That is another affirmative evidence for the wild horse model. The more I press on my ‘focus’, the more resistance it creates. The soft focus approach seems like the solution for that because a smaller percentage of focus on the breath doesn’t excite as much resistance from my mind. It’s great that I am more aware and having more insight into those ‘basic techniques’ I learned at the beginning. That is a sign that I am more advanced now than before. The more advanced I am, the more appreciative of me to those fundamental elements of the craft. 

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