Day 180

[ProLevel1] 15mins
"Simply be aware of what you’re doing in the moment. Just be natural and aware."
Slowing down and be more careful when doing things might be the side results of being more mindful and aware of the activity, but shouldn’t be the means to get to mindfulness. 
I noticed that when I was counting my breath, the breath became heavier. I found it to be more natural and light when I was just placing some focus on the breath and observe. I felt the natural rhythm of breathing. That was just noticing how I breathe normally. But when I started to count the breath, I felt the heaviness crept in right away and weighted it down. I was so shocked at that discovery, I didn’t really observe how that heavy breathing was comparing to my normal breathing. Doing it now, I feel the airs are coming in through the lower part of my nostrils, dragged lower by the weight of it when I was counting the breath. While normal breathing is coming in through the top and feels fresher, which stimulate my olfactory senses more. 

Side note, my sense of smell isn’t very good in the sense that I can’t distinguish smells too well. But I felt like my olfactory sensors are sensitive that my nose feels stung all the time. Maybe it is precisely because those sensors are so sensitive that they are overwhelmed and I, therefore, can’t distinguish the smells. Those data are all simply saturated.

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