I had a dream on 9/1

I had a dream. 再我夢裡，是個很大的lecture hall，一堆人坐在那邊聽講，我很無聊，就爬到後面的小房間, which looks like a guard’s room, 從裡面拿出個有線電話，拿回到位子上給我旁邊的一個黑人女的用，他打給他祖母，居然要我講，我孜孜屋屋講不太出來，他祖母耳朵也不太好，就趕緊掛掉了。
之後宗宗和另一個樂旗的過來，指責我為什麼不問候阿婆，而去跟別人的祖母講電話，我想解釋說本來我只想給那女的用，我沒有要講話，但是他們都不聽，我很難過，一方面是委屈，另一方面是想到阿婆，為什麼不打個電話給阿婆呢？
忽然大頭也做到我的身邊，他穿著白色輕薄運動外套，上面有一條紅色條文再手臂上，再配個相像的帽子，大頭的帽子一定是定做的^^咩學長也在後面，他們說要出遊，大頭跟宣宣說不用找我了，反正我一定不記得要出去，他們就大批人走了，我真的不記得阿，好難過喔。
之前去拿電話的時候，還有去房間邊的一個小弟到鑽，好想還卡住><
走出那個會場，我記得的是鄭LT來找我，雖是為了另一個女生，他的大姊頭，可是後來我跟他坐在一起聊天和親嘴，很害羞，就被鬧鐘叫醒了…

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