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今天是我又一次的想要開始寫日記，或者說是周記還比較現實。我是想要用拼音來寫，但是實在是太慢了＞＜
我現在回來北京已經是第三個禮拜了，大概就是三件事吧
第一是跟Sisi分手：我真是不該在台灣跟她提分手，但是我真的覺得這樣會比較好。
第二是香香如意跟小舅舅的關係：我之前真的對他們很陌生，要不是這次來北京住小舅舅這邊，又有Tom跟我一起來，我看我這個表哥都還是會懵懵懂懂，真的很慚愧，我不是沒發現到異狀，我太冷淡了，對其他的事情漠不關心。我真的是個隱士，好像天下事，就連我自家的事都跟我沒太大關連。我很糟，不像Tom or Sisi那樣的熱心和正義，不過也就因為我這樣，比較不會惹人厭。
第三就是我來到這個我以前都只是聽過看過沒來過的都市－北京。這到底是個怎麼樣的城市呢？我知道多少了？這幾個禮拜加上六七月來的一個月，北京觀光客去的地方我都差不多去完了，但是觀光客不能說他了解這個城市吧，這我的眼裡，北京市很大，大到去哪裡都差不多要留一個小時才不會遲到太多... 剛來的時候覺得這邊的人怎麼都很野蠻，地鐵公車上車時擠來推去的，絲毫沒有排隊的概念，也沒看到讓位子給老弱婦孺。Sisi說是外地人來，所以才沒教養，我那時真的是不以為然，你們怎麼都認為自己人（北京人）都很好，北京會這樣都是別人害的，完全都是在推卸責任。還有這裡的服務業也都是兇不拉機的，好像給他前賺是我們欠他的。不過我都想說他們就是這樣長大，這是他們的norm。但是，八月回來真的不一樣了，雖然還是有插隊現象，大部分的人們都有先下後上的想法，上車也沒那麼爭先恐後了。在地鐵上公車裡讓座就像是理所當然的事，我去台灣的這一個月有這麼大的變化！奧運期間政府大力宣傳文明市民真的有效，而且這期間外地人進來不易，北京人的水準真的不差耶。宣傳也要有文化的市民響應才有效果阿！

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